Crying my last tear.

I have seriously never felt so replaced in my entire life. Sad thing is, you can't even see how much you are hurting me. You're too blinded by how you are friends with this person that you can't see how bad I'm hurting. As I sat here tonight and listened to everything you were telling me, I cried. I cried because I'm going off to college in 4 months and you aren't even trying to save what we have. This shouldn't be this way. I don't know whether to give up now or to keep trying. Giving up sounds so much easier. I just want to start crying right now.

Update

I haven't been on here in so long. Been way too busy with something I wanna call my future.

Over the past 2 months, I've:
-Become closer to my bestfriend, but further now that time goes on.
-Visited my future college.
-Became an enrolled student.
-Put a down payment on my new apartment.
-Started High school swimming.
-Had no drama.
-Had the love of my life move to the other side of the country.
-Haven't had my laptop since New Years, hence why I haven't updated this.
-Stopped talking to my dad.
-Broken my left hand and fractured my right hand. (I was angry =/)
-Realized what I need in life.
-Stopped talking to some people.
-Grew closer to others.
-Lost weight.
-Became a more giving person.
-Noticed that life is just a prayer handed from god.
-Started keeping my room clean daily.
-Tried to have a better relationship with my sister.
-Gotten in a car accident.
-Spent way too much money.
-Met new people.
-Stayed single.
-Tried to love life...


I'll start writing again now that I'm gonna get a new charger in 3 days :)